This room has no solace in which to have beliefNo gilding on the cage in paint or golden leafOnly I take the stageRead the lines on the pageAn action which does not allow for sweet relief Endless mirrors engulf the spaceBoundless images show my faceTo replicate, simulate, and accelerate my fall from grace Blistering highs, … Continue reading Panic Room: C. Fay Shlanda

I was the match, you were the flame.Intoxicating fumes fueled heightened emotions.The light burned bright till you consumed me. I was the performer, you were the ring master.Training to walk on eggshells as I tread your stage.Starving for praise as you collected the accolades. I was a hollow shell, you were empty calories.Feeding on a … Continue reading Corrupting Combinations: C. Fay Shlanda

Uneven Being at odds An unbalanced situation The irregular division of living A skewed look at the asymmetrical designs in the world Life is filled with misaligned matches challenging our will to survive Uneven Staying sporadic An atypical symptom The anomalous state of existing Seeing the inequities in a world that never claimed to be … Continue reading Uneven: C. Fay Shlanda

Clemency A leniency given The pardoning of a person Quarter is allowed despite the crime This word shows mercy, but does not equal forgiveness I will disregard your callous actions The words you spoke will be brushed off I am abandoning the idea of retaliations Dissipating are any future plans with you I will not … Continue reading Clemency: C. Fay Shlanda

Resiliency Bouncing back To have a flexibility An ability to withstand adversity Rearranging to accommodate the hardships of life. Trauma pricked, prodded, and poked at my buoyancy My adaptability was tested, taunted and tweaked Triggers pulled, played, and plotted against my elasticity Recovery was trying, traumatic, and tear inducing. Resiliency To spring back Having a … Continue reading Resiliency: C. Fay Shlanda

I have enjoyed the love of another Had the unyielding love of a mother Love that is kind One that was blind A fiery feeling no one could smother I have been witness to a love so true Watched them in awe from afar as it grew A love so fair Without a care Unaware … Continue reading To Love Thyself: C. Fay Shlanda

Allow my words to take you on a journey Through some of the dark recesses of my mind A long, rocky trip, not for the faint of heart For the light in there is not easy to find. We begin with the expanding loneliness Standing alone, under a burnt out street light It is scanning … Continue reading The Tour: C.Fay Shlanda

The words I am about to weave for you are what binds me in place. Devices tethered tight to the past, a tragedy transfixed in my future. My mental illness amidst them. This tale is older than my years, my days, my minutes. Spun by millions through the millennia, and dismantled by millions more. I … Continue reading Typecast : C.Fay Shlanda